Have you ever woken up one morning and just felt something different in the air?
We had been married three years. Three wonderful, happy, capacity expanding years.
I first sensed it when our baby boy patted me good morning from the inside. I realized that this would be our last anniversary as just "us". ...a little bitter sweet, but mostly sweet.
Then I felt it again when I was driving to work-and this is what I saw.
I could feel it. With this sunrise came change.
I thought I was going to another day of work, and then we'd go to California to celebrate a sunrise in my sister's life, and we'd come back and I'd go to work again and Chase and I would keep living our lives...and it would change day by day, bit by bit.
I like change, I really do. But I like to anticipate it.
I like to ponder it, prepare for it, ready myself.
Then let the change ease itself in...
and its always a little hard leaving the old behind,
but the new is so exciting...a new adventure that brings more growth.
Sometimes it doesn't happen that way though.
Sometimes its sudden, and shocking, and it feels like you've got no control.
That kind of change is a lot harder to deal with.
But then you realize that you have a Heavenly Father who has a plan.
Not just for all of his children. for MY family. for ME.
He knows what is in store for us. And it is always wonderful-
better than we could choose for ourselves. Better than we can imagine.
But it is hard to give up that control sometimes. At least for me.
Sometimes we have to take a step forward.
into the shadows,
knowing that I don't have to see what is ahead
if I step in the direction Heavenly Father wants me to step.
So we did. Chase and I decided that it was time to be willing to do what Heavenly Father wanted...which we were always willing to do.
BUT we had to be willing to follow Him without seeing how it would work out.
Where will we live?
Where will Chase work?
What about the wonderful family we have in Boise?
What about the job/internship we have here?
What about our apartment in Boise?
and on and on and on.
So we gave up trying to answer all of those questions before making a decision.
We had to excersise FAITH
and it was scary.
One day I was sitting in my office in Kyle's garage,
thinking of the redbox we'd pick up that night and what groceries I would buy for lunch.
The next day I was in Salt Lake City with no idea what we were doing or how it would work out.
But I knew that it would.
And it did.
Within three days I got a well paying job in Salt Lake that couldn't be more perfect,
we worked the details of leaving our Boise job with our wonderful boss (my brother),
Chase got hired at a Commercial Real Estate firm with salary and benefits (YAY!)
we've got a roof over our heads,
all the bills got paid,
and lots of family who love us.
But most of all, a Heavenly Father who blesses us
with more than we could even think to ask for
Life is good. Change is scary...
but so worth it.
Goodbye to our happy six months in Boise.
We loved living by and working with family
We loved the late, light summer evenings playing softball
We loved dinner and football at Mom and Dad's
We loved ditching work to swim in the pool
and watching Penny and Bear wrestle all day.
We loved watching Tayler grow and being around to help her do it.
We loved learning what we learned.
We'll be back to visit soon.
Thanks for everything Mom, Dad, Kaela, Kyle, Jade, and Tayler.
Love you, miss you.
Goodnight to yesterday,
Good morning to the sunrise
and a new day.